things dont turn out the way i; we expected today.
i had looked so forward to it ytd but yeah.. the higher the hopes, the greater i fall?

supposingly to see christmas lights today but didnt catch much of it and no pictures taken.
none of us are rly in the mood and everyone appear kinda sian, including me.. we walked aimlessly around and took a super long time to decide what to eat.. went to mac afterall and i didnt eat much except a few mouthfuls of my burger and afew fries. saying that i'm not used to dinner is just part of the reason...

haiz, i feel sad and the type of sad is different from the kind what i usual feel.. the level of sadness is totally different. not sth i could get over like after afew hours or what. it's gona take days or more.. because i rly did look forward to it alot but even i, myself is feeling sian la..

on the way home, i sat alone while the rest is standing up, some distance away from me and i kept thinking... i know i'm one who think alot la but yeah just let me be. first time, i rly need some time alone and so much thoughts to sort out.. feeling damn sad la. almost all of us are working and it'll be damn long till the next time we meet up and things dont turn out as what i thought ytd night.

for my case, i feel sian/sad is because of that, after one whole week of late night work finally a day out with all the people i like but.. yup.

倔强的我不肯让泪水滑落……轻易的让泪水落下，已经不再是我的作风……
我应该不再只是依赖，而是学着长大……对吗？

tmr work till night again. how nice?